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I can no longer hide it from myself, so I suppose I should tell you all: I'm completely smitten. You know how when you haven't seen someone for a while, and maybe haven't thought about them that much in the interrim, but suddenly there they are before you and your heart twists up with just how much you've missed them? That was me on Tuesday, when I saw Yuriko for the first time in two and a half weeks. On top of her usual cuteness, she had her hair in pigtails, which I'd never seen her wear before; when she ran up to me at play-time, laughing and tugging at my arm, wanting me to pick her up, I just about melted.

It's funny, because when I started this job, I fully expected to soon grow very fond of the kids, but I was unprepared for how much I've come to love this little girl. It's the first time I've felt this kind of love, and I can't help but imagine that should I one day have children of my own, my feelings for them would be like this, but exponentially stronger. It's rather frightening.

Somehow, I can't help but feel pathetic for eating supper this late. I've actually been home for nearly two hours, but over half that time was spent chopping vegetables for my should-really-not-take-this-long-to-make stir-fry. orz

I need a wok.