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Sometimes I'm so dense, I frustrate myself. Like, it takes nearly coming to tears during ballet class (because there's one movement I can't do properly and I make it look awful) to consciously realise how much I love ballet, and how much I really want to do well. But then, five minutes later, I felt that I had nearly nailed an enchaƮnement I've had trouble with for months, and I was smiling to myself and wanting to pat myself on the back. I know I wasn't doing it perfectly (my arms especially were all over the place), but I was on the proper beat, and I was more up in the air than down, my feet skimming the floor as they were supposed to. That's what I love about ballet: when I'm doing it right, I feel light and weightless and graceful.

At the end of class, there was a little surprise party for a girl who's leaving to study contemporary dance in Germany for two years. Cakes and wine were brought out, and since there were no plates or napkins, everyone was given a fork and told to dig in. It was fun! I ended up chatting with one of the girls who works at the studio, who was very sweet, but after a two-hour class, with nothing but half a glass of wine and a few bites of cake in my stomach, my Japanese wasn't all that impressive. Still, I gambatta, so yay me? XD;

Ugh, cockroach! :P At least Tabitha proved she serves as a warning system? XD Must buy more poison tomorrow. Bleurk.

Anyway, I bought a 4 class ticket for ballet instead of my usual 8 class, both because I don't think I have the time or the energy to make it to eight classes before I leave for China, and also because Sarah came up with this crazy idea to go to Bali, and I'm afraid I'm going to cave and go along... even if it means having no money to spend.

I've been thinking a lot about money recently, and trying to figure out where my priorities lie. Well -- actually, that's not true. I know where my priorities lie, where they've always lain: I want to travel. Ever since I started working and didn't have to save up money for tuition, I saved money so I could travel. Even now, though I spend pretty freely, I feel guilty for not putting more in my travel fund. As it is, China is going to cost a lot, on top of what I've already paid (plane ticket, insurance, visa, medical stuff). Then there's airfare home for Christmas (but maybe I could get my parents to partly fund that: "Daddy, how much do you want to have me home for Christmas? :D"), and the whole Bali thing... not to mention little things like rent and food. Bah, why doesn't someone give me a pile of money to use as I please?

On the bright side, this desire to be frugal is inspiring me to sew, since I won't be getting my jollies buying stuff. Except for when Hannah and I hit up the summer sales, of course.

Hmm, maybe that can be a sticker sheet reward? Haha, maybe I have too many sticker sheets; it's getting that I have too many things I need to reward myself for. ^__^;;; At least that means I'm accomplishing stuff, I guess!

Anyway, good night, gotta get some of that sleep stuff that is apparently good for you!

Date: 2010-07-06 03:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kira-shadow.livejournal.com
ooh dancing + germany
nostalgic~
*used to do ballett + flamenco at a dancing school in germany*

*hugs*
we all have our moments of frustration and accomplishment...shows we're human
*sounding philosophical fail*
and I need to get working on sticker sheets too... lol maybe I should give myself a sticker for that... "make sticker sheets" *fails*

ewwww cockroaches...
wait cockroaches + dancing...dancing cockroaches...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XnkssI105ls&feature=related
TO THE HEAVEN!
lol
and wth have the shitenhouji version
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gbS51CQBoIg

Date: 2010-07-06 11:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dilettantka.livejournal.com
I'm totally inspired by the way you talk about ballet. I wish I could dance or skate... ♥ I'll begin by losing more weight and doing more regular stretching and then I'll charenji za aisu again. I want to take ballet too!! If only I had more money!!!

Come with us to Bali (and Taiwan? :D?)!! We'll do it as cheaply as we can because I don't have much money either. Which reminds me, I need to make a "saving money" sticker page... which requires me to buy more stickers :D!

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